Hero...

A dark clouds have been decorating the offing lately, my eyes catch them from the shore were I put my feet on. Clouds of sadness of losing more than one friend in a time, and it gets darker when it comes to revealed deepest fear of how fragile we are. But we don’t live a day with may be and what if, since the sunlight still shine no matter how huge our hesitation about it. We did move on, and this always mean forward, cause there’s no step back allowed within our days. We already enjoy the lack of knowledge about tomorrow as a part of a challenge facing this life. The uncertainty becomes dearest friend when we talk about next days to follow. And that’s what I learn from scenes of life captured within this few days, weeks, months..
Yesterday, I’m being asked why I thought Indiana Jones is some kind of hero to me. Perhaps my answer little bit odd, since I always think this characters is truly unique and electrifying. I never dreamt about super hero rescuing my days, I just wondering how an ordinary man able to think and use all effort he had to help others and somehow…just save the world. I like Indiana Jones, since he’s just an ordinary man, flesh and blood, doesn’t have any super power, wings to fly, high tech gadgets, he’s just a typical of man who adores creativity.
And above all, Indiana Jones also live with uncertainty, bleed, scratch, and suffer as I do. One thing that I always capture from this movie is that life is an adventure, the uncertainty create challenges, and this is our call to sharpen each tiny competence inside us become a great power. That’s why I like this tagline, "If adventure has a name, it must be Indiana Jones". Though it’s just a movie, but this character make me think try to act and resolve like him.
Few months ago, I almost give up when my research come to nowhere end, daily work create tons of pressure, and the most unbelievable condition is I have to revealed stinky reality that in this world have a disease called "Middle Age Crisis". I have to fight for my own dignity in a place where I should be highly respected, though the consequences little bit hard but thank God, I survive. For once in my life, I begin to think that marital status indeed have a great meaning for woman in this country, since "single status" create somekind of visible invitation stitch upon our forehead. And this "Middle Age Crisis" almost become a pandemic within this environment, which really need to be erased. This unpleasant case already create a disturbance, but won't affect me on my own principles. I’m not naïve young girl who got easily manipulated, I begin to think like Indiana Jones, I believe I should fight till the last blood if I have to. If I win, I’ll walk proudly free, but if I lost…I’d rather find a better place to stay. And I did win. With the spirit of Indiana Jones, and the light from above I’m able to change uncertainty into a fun adventure with full of challenge.
Step by step….I saw the light knocking on my doors, to inform the dark clouds already gone. Though the offing isn’t always mine, but the colors I want to see is truly depend on me. I’m sure my horizons create amusing colors since I’ve passed one test and waiting for another...